This series from University of California San Francisco, is truly excellent. It reaffirms a lot of what I’ve been learning. Again, the enemy is sugar and carbs. If you’re interested in the science of Obesity, definitely check it out. The other one, of course, from HBO is its documentary series: The Weight of the Nation.
I’m still dealing with heel pain, so I’ve decided to really rest my foot and give myself a break. I’m disappointed, but when I started this trek I told myself – first and foremost – I was not going to punish myself. I have stopped exercising, but have not gone back to eating food that is generally bad for the population. I’m still not eating carbs or sugar, but I may re-introduce brown rice into my diet. I’ve heard it’s bad to completely cut out carbs for an extended period of time.
My weight keeps fluctuating up and down about 2 pounds, but is otherwise steady.
So, I wait.
The good news is I’ve re-connected with the stable where I had signed up to lease a horse before. They have a new trainer who said she could teach me English lessons, so I’m really looking forward to that. Considering you mount a horse with your left foot (my bad foot), I have to make sure I’m okay before I start riding again. But, it’s giving me something wonderful to look forward to.
I will update again when things start moving again. Literally and figuratively.
For the past month, I have not continued to lose weight. I’ve flat-lined at the 50-pound loss. I know it has much to do with my annoying plantar faciitis and the fact that I can’t continue to use the treadmill, walk, or do the normal exercise I was doing that resulted in my early rapid weight loss.
I’m still sticking to my no carb, no sugar food choices, but the weight has just settled in and won’t budge.
I’m fairly frustrated. At this point, when the pounds stop coming off, I start to lose patience. I question why I’m doing this if there are no results, yada yada.
I realize I’m at a crossroads. I have to change something I’m doing (or not doing) or I risk giving up completely. I’m open to ideas, so if you have any, please share!
In high school, my daughter completed an International Baccalaureate subject in Art. Much of her art centered on a theme of beauty and a warped female interpretation of beauty. This “cutout book” was a satirical statement on how girls could reshape these works of fine art, by slimming down these ancient beauties.
She got rave reviews from the reviewer for this work in particular.
Lately, I’ve been wondering if I’ve become obsessed about getting to my goal weight. I simply will not eat carbs or sugar. It’s sort of like putting an aspirin between your legs to not get pregnant – I just won’t do it. I also was a little alarmed that I cut off the taping my foot doctor had done to my foot last week because it prevented me from swimming. I’ve been wondering if such extreme actions are really healthy mentally.
But, on the other hand, I get increasingly frustrated with the fat and flab I see now hanging from my arms, legs, and stomach showing up in my reflection in the mirror. It’s hanging around like guests at a party who won’t leave long after the party is over. I just want to be rid of it, so my mind starts thinking of ways I can cut corners. I’ve even thought of surgery and liposuction.
When I visited my daughter in Florida recently, I was very disappointed to discover I had gained four pounds upon my return. I’ve since lost them, but am still where I was a few weeks ago. So, my progress has stalled once again.
I’m considering going back to My Fit Foods for another 3-week period. I’m fairly sure I won’t have the same dramatic weight loss I had the first time ’round, but I thought it might help to introduce a new regime of eating healthy. I feel like I’m in a rut.
If you can’t tell, I’m pretty serious about getting to my goal weight. I’m over a third of the way there, so my clothes are not fitting right. I’ve retired a lot of my “fat clothes.” However, I don’t want to buy retail clothes because I want to keep going. What’s the sense in buying new clothes that I will not fit in at some point in the future?
To that end, I’ve been picking up things in thrift stores. It’s sort of fun. I’ve found some designer clothes in sizes that fit, and feel great when I don’t spend a lot of money. But, I’m leaving tomorrow to see my daughter and grandkids and felt like I should at least have a pair of jeans that fit, so I went to Macy’s tonight.
Picking out clothes to try on, I realized I had dropped 4 pants sizes! That’s awesome! I’m still in “fat” sizes, but what a jolt of adrenaline in the dressing room when I fit into jeans four sizes smaller than the last time I had bought them. The real test will be whether I sell/donate my fat clothes and clear out my closet, so there is no going back.
Another weird surprise was I also needed sandals with a strap on the back for my annoying heel issue (which seems to be getting better, but still hurts). I went down a half-size in my shoe size! That’s as awesome as it is bizarre.
I will never be a skinny bitch like the woman in this photo, but I will rejoice when I can buy normal sizes. I will also be very, very broke.
I suck at swimming. I’m a disgrace to my Zodiac sign (Pisces). I marvel at the way people just glide through the water, effortlessly. It’s as if they have a secret motor beneath the surface propelling them forward. How is that even possible? Nonetheless, because my heel is still on the mend, I need to swim rather than do any other kind of aerobic exercise. I won’t win any Olympic awards for my swimming performance or style, but I will get in the pool and get my heart rate pumping. I will say that after ten minutes or so, I could actually feel my muscles. That was pretty cool. I’m guessing I’ll build up stamina over time.
I have to put my TEAM weight loss program on hold. Very disappointed in that. I will also start weight-training tomorrow with my trainer. I’m worried that I won’t be able to keep losing weight if I don’t exercise. I don’t think I’ll gain weight, as I’ve really tackled the eating thing. I simply don’t eat foods that are not healthy or will put the pounds back on. It’s easy now, and even rewarding when I find something new I like to eat.
That’s all for today, just wanted to make a note that even if you have to make adjustments to your weight loss program, all you risk is a little embarrassment in form.